If only you knew...

If only you knew how you have effected me in everyway. How I have started to fear love, or getting to close, or getting hurt. How I run away before someone has time to catch up with me, or let me feel how I really feel on the inside. If only you knew all the things that I have learned, both good and bad. I have learned that I cannot trust everybody, I've learned to see through people, and to not fall into any other traps. If only you knew the stronger person I am today because of what you did. The snaps I get when I get irritated, or the broken heart I feel when someone else is feeling outside or left alone. If only you knew that you are the one and only person who will ever have the power or strength to ever push me down, because now no one (not even you) would have the force to do so.

Yes, I wonder if you know, which you obviously don't because guess what, I have shut you out, and you will never know because no matter what you do, there will never be a door open for you in my life, ever again. I hope you knew that when you made me loose my respect...